A Confession to Spiderman

With great power comes great responsibility!



Hence, if I'm bearing no responsibility then
I have no power. This will certainly let me
down, but that doesn't mean being powerful
makes me happy.

Now, I have a confession to make:

(wow, I see the ears turning in my direction, now this
IS what grabbing the audience's attention all about~)
I'm no spiderman.
Alright, I'm LAZY...REEEEEAlly really lazy.
I'm a procrastinator; I don't pay any tiny winny
bit of attention to what I'm responsible for until the
last minute. Say, there is a project paper on
"photonic crystal" due tomorrow, which was
assigned two weeks(14 days) ago. During the past
two weeks whenever I had time to work on it
(and should), I'd rather be lazy and go out loitering.
If it was raining, then movies would become my priority.
Yes, I PROCRASTINATED the tasks, for my LAZINESS!!!



What's worse, I have the "ability" to ignore what
should have been done and is still undone. Suppose
it's midnight and the paper is due tomorrow at
17:00(meeting time). I'd tell myself there are still
17 hours to spare, who cares?
(only a shit like me won't care about a 2-week
assignment and17hrs left with no efforts made!?)
Therefore at midnight I'd make myself a cup of
coffee and probably insert a sitcom VCD of
FRIENDS into my computer.Then I'll be laughing
and 100% enjoying for the next 2 solid hours,
totally IGNORING that the bomb of irresposibility
is about to blow!!



Next noon (not morning 'cuz I'll still be sleeping...),
5 hours before due, I'll hypnotize myself to believe
4 hours are still more than enough so that I can have
a leisure lunch....and then come back for a lazy cup of tea.

As the clock ticks, I will finally start to get a little nervous
about having nothing for the meeting when there's 1.5
hours left. Unfortunately, I'm neither Spiderman nor Einstein,
it's impossible to do all the derivations and analysis in such
small amount of time. With no alternatives left(I, myself, am
fully responsible for this), I'll quite possibly spend most of the
time thinking of excuses instead of doing what's supposed
to be done. (excuses such as too busy studying english for
GRE or have to practice pingpong for the upcoming
inter-college game....etc)

Finally, with all excuses prepared (it feels awful
to say so><), I'll meet the professor and show him the paper which is previously done last semester - with minor changes. Along with the "well
thought" excuses, the professor seemed to
appreciate my busy hard-working life style.
This might be a relief at that moment, but after I
come home, the bomb will still go off!



Because shunning responsibility makes me feel
so guilty and incompetent.

The leisure from responsiblity-shunning is just
a flash in the pan. And if someone think that
it's possible to brighten up his life with
these successive flashes, he will be DEAD wrong.



His life will be trapped by the cobwebs of
rotten overdue responsibilities!